How are you?

I’m fine.

Really?

Of course I am.

Why do you ask?

Because I know you

Dig deep

What do you feel?

I don’t feel anything

Numbness or emptiness?

A little of both

Mostly a big heavy

And the rest, well, empty.

What did I just see?

Are you mad?

Are you sad?

I don’t think so

Dig a little deeper

Do you feel anything?

I feel a fencing foil

From my throat

To my rectum

Its getting bigger

And hotter

Its growing

To the size of

A knight’s sword

It’s starting to glow

with heat

it’s getting larger

its settled

in my belly

into the shape

of a big iron stove

It’s settled

The fire is out

The hot coals remain

What the hell was that?

That’s exactly what that was

Hell

Your hell

The pain from your past

The pain from your present

The pain from your future

If you don’t resolve this

C’mon it wasn’t that bad

Wasn’t that bad?

That’s because

You’ve numbed it all

You’ve deadened the pain

Because it is too much to bear

And empty

Because you’ve killed

Parts of you

A sunny day

Something we all dream of

The sun on our back

With its warm glow

Why would anyone

Pick anywhere else to go?

 

Because it is not all that it seems

We are not looking at what’s in-between

I like the sun because its not in the shade

And I like the shade because its not in the sun

 

Wait!

That sounds oppositional

And it ain’t like that

 

The first warm of year and I wanna be in the sun

But, by mid-summer, I long for the shade

At night, we play in the light because it feels safe

But we do what we really want in the dark because…well, I don’t know

 

It’s all about shadow and light

Whether outer world or not

We want the other one

Just when it feels right

 

When I am with people

Laughing and positive

I want to go to the shadows

Where the freedom is relative

 

When I am feeling blue

And down in the dumps

I want those happy, pretty people

To help me over the humps

 

I guess what I’m saying is

That we need shadow and light

One to hide the darkness

The other to hide the light

 

Its all like a sunny day

The brighter the light

The darker the shadow

And that’s when it is right

Whether day or night