500 miles to watch
My dear aunt die
Would like eulogize her
But I didn’t really know her well
That being said
She gave me
Hope and relief
Which now causes me grief
She loved her brother
And that love
Was extended to me as well
Without her, my life
Would be more of a hell
But that is not
What this trip was about
It was a benchmark
Of what I am
Then and now
You see,
I recently learned
All the crap
Of my early life
Just wasn’t my fault
The shame of our dirty house
And the mess that we were
Was not my fault
Time to drop the shame
The abuse and the neglect
That we had to survive
Was not my fault
I can drop it before I die
The shame of our poverty
Only in a social sense
I can release it
Because it was due to sense
not cents
Most of all
I can release the shit
Literally and figuratively
It’s not my fault
And that’s it
It feels so good
To release this from my past
And speak my truth
And feel the pleasure
That lasts and lasts
So goodbye to my hometown
Gone from farm to shopping mall
Now it’s all ugly
Just like the past I had to endure